The End of an Era

So much has changed in my life. As you all know we moved to Dallas a little over a year ago. I was diagnosed with Stage 3 breast cancer in November 2015. 24 rounds of chemo and a bilateral mastectomy has happened and I'm nearing the end of my radiation. I've discovered that I had two biologically different cancers in my breast. My cancer is considered high risk so while I'll soon be cured I'll have to stay on a medication for ten years and see my oncologist regularly to make sure it doesn't come back.

This journey has also brought me to realizations. I realized I needed help with my mental illness. I never thought I had it bad enough to seek help, but after finally breaking down and seeing a therapist I've come to realize that it was indeed bad for me. I truly hated myself. I despised me. My therapist has helped me see my worth. I need to take meds now but a low dose. I feel more productive now. I'm taking steps to get healthy again. I'm starting to walk and will get back into running. I've started cooking and now have another blog that will be dedicated to my journey and I'll have guests contributing.

The biggest thing for me is finding myself and finding my happy me. After much deliberation I have decided that I must break away from Facebook. At first I thought I'd just cut back to once a week but I'm not good with moderation. I get sucked in. I can't separate myself from the pain, anger and sadness that I see there. Lately it's grown due to the tragedies that have happened in the world. I can't have a happy me with everything. My focus goes to everything else and I have nothing left for me after I give the last bits to my family and home. So this era of Facebook must end. I'll keep up on my Instagram occasionally and you can find me here or on my other blog (myadventuresincooking.com). Please follow them both. I'd love to hear from you. Many of you also know how else to contact me.

Much love to you. My FB will remain active for a week or so, so my friends can get what they need from me and see this. After that time passes it will go away and I won't reactive it. I may keep messenger active but I've not decided yet. Thank you all for sharing your lives with me. ❤❤❤