Update

I've not been updating but I've been consistent with working out and eating mostly well. I think the best thing for me is building my habit of exercise and moving more and then work out my food macros. 

Journal 3/15/23

Today we got up and went to the gym. Leg day felt hard but it felt good. I went to work for the whole day which I'll also do tomorrow and Friday. I did. Some work on my photography project due after spring break and I read a little bit of Dante and Aristotle Discover the Secrets of the Universe. On my way home I talking with my bestie on the phone. It was a nice way to pass the time. No crafting today but I'm hoping to take something with me tomorrow to do at work.

Food

dinner was friend polenta with creamy sauce with peas, broccoli rabe and mushrooms. I forgot to take a picture. 

Journal 03/14/2023

Today was a good day. I slept in since it was spring break and I am not working today. I feel like I ate well. I dropped old clothes off for donation and made some photos before sitting down and completing a cute embroidery kit of an owl. Tomorrow I'm going to start a bigger cross stitch project. The embroidery was fun but not as fun and relaxing as the cross stitch was. Tomorrow I'll also go into to work after the gym and work a full day. 

Making

Food

Journal 3/13/2023

Today has been a good day. It's the first day of spring break, but I did decide to work Wednesday through Friday. We went to the gym this morning and I had a nice workout. I decided to add a couple more exercises to my rotation. I think I'll be sore tomorrow. We had one of our trees in the front yard taken down because it was mostly dead and becoming a hazard to our home and our neighbor's house. I vacuumed the house. I need to make it a habit to vacuum every Friday. 

Making:

I finished my cross stitch cactus. It's cute. 

Food:

Crawling Out From Under My Rock

I'm still here. I live! I just did so in silence but I realize I miss writing and was inspired by my hubby to use this kind of like a journal. I doubt anyone still reads this anyway but I won't over share. I'm back in school for my BA in English but I'm focusing on writing and rhetoric instead of literature. I'm working on taking care of myself by working my body in the gym four days a week. I look forward to using this space to hold myself accountable with my eating and exercising as well as sharing fun bits of my life. 

Food:

Breakfast: Steel cut oats with butter, brown sugar, some dried cranberries and dried blueberries and a splash of cream. I also added some raw nuts for texture. 

Lunch: Bahn mi with pork, pate, and the traditional veggies. A Vietnamese iced coffee to drink.

Dinner: Okay, so I've not had dinner yet because it is still afternoon but I will be eating spaghetti pie with a Texas cheesy toast. 

Making shit:

I'm working on a little cross stitch cactus. 

Just some jabbering

I'm keeping busy with things. Mostly cooking or baking related. I baked that loaf of bread and plan on baking at least a loaf a week. Well, actually two because I want to make a loaf for my awesome friend and her boyfriend. They have been such a huge to help us. I seriously don't know how we would have gotten through all that cancer shit without them and their love.

I've decided to keep on baking. Tomorrow morning I'm going to try my hand at biscuits. I'll let you all know how it goes. In a couple days I'm going to bake some cookies. I'm thinking peanut butter cookies and adding chocolate chips to them. Mmmmm.

I'm not only baking though. I have been cooking too. I am making an effort to make breakfast for myself and Jake a few days a week and I also cook a couple meals a week. It's only a couple because I like to make something big that can last is for a few days. It makes life a bit easier and it's great because some days life is too hard and I've got nothing left in me. I plan on updating my food blog soon with the dish I made last night.

So I'm gonna keep on being busy because I am happier when I'm productive and I guess you can say creative. Oh, I practiced some music yesterday. I tuned my guitar and ukulele and played a little on my tin whistle. It was a lot of fun.

Productivity is the key!

My mood had dipped very low in recent weeks. I could hardly move. I was floating in a sea of depression in the dark, by myself. I could hardly move. Some changes were made that helped a little but what really seemed to light up the darkness was when I decided to bake a loaf of bread. While the dough was rising I finished the laundry and cleaned up the kitchen. It was like a spark. The light flashed on and I started to swim to safer waters. I was happy and humming while I got the bread in the pan and let it rise a second time. It took so long for me to realize that sitting and giving in to the negative voices was only making them stronger. Usually I would have berated myself for not realizing this soon but instead I looked at the positives. I know now and that I what is important. It's like when people say the first step to recovery is acknowledging you have a problem.

Now I think about what I can make next. What new thing I can try. I should mention that was my first loaf of bread AND it was delicious. Next on the docket to try is biscuits. I'm feeling so much better. Occasionally I feel those negative thoughts but I think about baking or cooking and they voices fade into the background as I imagine the steps.